The Clock is Ticking

Decisions, decisions, decisions. I guess that is life. You just have to decide things for some reasons I don't really know. And having a keyboard this hard even adds to the cursedness of my stinking life!

My sister gave me an option if I want to go study in Cebu. The thing is, I don't know anyone there, or at least know the place thoroughly. She said that if I study there, not only that it is an awfully fresh new start, but also, I can earn so much money for my mission. At least that is the case there.

On the other hand, I don't know any school there, AT ALL! And it is going to be my first time to go to such place where I've never been to. Yeah, it is a new experience for me, but how can I be sure of what can happen to me or at least, what are the outcomes of this in terms of my studies and social life? Doesn't make any sense, does it?

If I will stay in Manila, I don't think there are any differences at all. No. 1: Housing. I would pretty much prefer living with my aunt rather than being all by myself in Cebu. Because it's just the same. My aunt has several houses that I can go and stay. Which means that I am most likely to be alone. No.2 : Social Life. Through-out my school life, I was always alone, or with geeks and nerds that are social outcasts, by which also makes me an outcast. No. 3 : Way of Living. I am guessing that this has nothing to do with my decisions. But since I already included that crap right here, I think I just have to write something about it. The way I live in Saudi is really different from the Philippines. A lot of adjustments are to be done when I am going back home. Unlike here, there are some things that are just not easy to leave. And I think you know what I mean. I guess that is just it.

OK, Main point, I all I want to point out here is not about independence or fresh starts or even earning something. It's not that I don't like those options or something, it's just hard for me this time to decide on which is which I have to choose. You know my brain, it can't handle this much choices than ever, but I have to do it anyways.

So, it's now time to make my decisions this early morning since there is no one to bug me.
(Don't Disturb! Someone is Thinking!)